Nervous...

Nervous--viewing the future with anxiety or alarm...

I know I am normally seen as a pretty confident person, some one who knows what she wants and goes for it ( I didn't get married at 18 because I was indecisive), but some times that is not always the case, sometimes I know what I want, but I am not sure how to go for it...sometimes I am just as nervous as everyone else, some times more so...
I have always wanted to come off as a confident person, and sometimes I think that may be to my detriment, yes I know what I want, but do I always know how to get it....nope...are there times when I know how to get it but am to nervous to do what ever it takes...yep...so sometimes I just "lay in wait" for things to come to me....not always the best idea...but I am working on it...so if you are waiting for me to do something and I have not yet done it, it doesn't mean I don't want to it just means I am human and my nerves sometimes get in the way, and sooner or later (hopefully sooner) I will kick my nerves out of the way and do what I want to do but what my nerves keep getting in the way of...

( How's that for not talking about work ;-).... I kept my promise no work talk)

Bucket List...Thanks Jess

(X)Gone on a blind date- Been there done that....it sucked

(X) Skipped school- Only every other day of my senior year...

( ) Been to Canada- nope, but when my best friend moves there I am sure to follow....

(X) Been to Mexico- I actually have been, not sure I would go right now, but definitely... want to go back someday

(X) Been to Florida- nope but want to go to Disney world someday

(X) Been on a plane- yeppers

(X) Been lost- nope in my family we call it going on an adventure, because when Bobbie was little (before I had GPS) I would get lost alot and that would scare Bobbie so we called it going on an Adventure....

( X) Been on the opposite side of the country- NYC Oct. 2004

( ) Gone to Washington , DC- nope...and not really interested...

(X) Swam in the ocean-Dude...Live in So. Cal.

() Cried yourself to sleep- don't think so...normally when I cry I can't sleep so I stay awake all night

(X) Played cops and robbers- I had no Idea the bucket list was x-rated

() Recently colored with crayons-ummmm nope....so not my thing

(X ) Sang Karaoke- it was not pretty, but I had 9 or 10 drinks in me.....

( ) Paid for a meal with coins only?- nope but I have paid for Gas with only coins

(X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?- hasn't everyone?

(X ) Made prank phone calls- hehehe

(X) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose- Just today...Stupid Robert...

(X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue- was not all it is cracked up to be...

(X ) Danced and or kissed in the rain- I have a wonderful Husband.....

() Written a letter to Santa Claus- Not for myself...but have helped my kids do it...

(X ) Been kissed under the mistletoe- sort of...

() Watched the sunrise with someone-I have watched it set... but never been awake for the rise...

(X) Blown bubbles- yeppers...its fun to torment the kids when they are little

( X) Gone ice-skating- Not pretty

(X ) Been skinny dipping outdoors- no comment

(X) Gone to the movies- yep...

(X)Own my own house-sittin in it now (well the bank owns most of it)

(X)Try to let myself experience life-I try my best to experience as much as I can ( although a lot of times it gets me in trouble)

()Visit the Grand Canyon-its a hole in the freaking ground...seen one of those before thank you...

(X)Have my breath taken away- was a very good very fun thing...

(X)Travel-have done some would love to do more

(X)Meet awesome friends-I already have the best ones ever, but new ones wouldn't be bad...make new friends but keep the old, one is silver, the other gold...

(X)Fall in love- Fell head first...glad he caught me

(X)Have very few regrets- not sure if I have any...everything I have done has made me the freaking awesome person I am today...

(X)Find happiness-I find it every day in my loved ones eyes....


Now I am going to add some of my own bucket list items:

I want to:


Watch my girls grow up and enjoy what life has to offer...

have my boobs lifted, I want them pointing to the sky as I lay in my coffin...

have a "girls weekend" away from the hubby and the kids...just to chat and gossip and shop...

have my hubby surprise me with a romantic weekend away..that he planned...

give the best Christmas gift ever to those I love, one they will never forget and always look back on and love...

to write a book...

to really be able to be myself 100%, and not care what anyone thinks...

Snow Day!!! Fun Day!!!

So we went to the snow on sunday and we took The Bestest Friend Ever...

and we took the puppy....

Can you tell he had fun running and playing in the snow?

The kids had fun too, even if it doesn't look like it from this picture...

We went we played...we had a blast sooo much fun then Jess fell in a hole...Robert helped her out...after he took a couple of pictures...

well thats not one of them...but we took some I swear...

Then we went shopping up there and got some cute stuff...came down...had lunch...came home...all in all it was a great day...and I hope to do it again soon...

I will always love you, no matter what you do...

That is what daddy told me when ever I did some thing really wrong...."I will always love you, no matter what you do, I just might not be as proud of you as I usually am..." Well I think that fits for how I am feeling right now... I went to play in the snow ( another blog and pictures on that another time I promise) yesterday and while up there the phone reception is really bad and if my phone can not get a signal it turns itself off (a fact I did not know until last night at about 10 pm)...When I went to see why I wasn't getting any calls (thinking I had turned to volume down) I saw it was off, upon turning it on I saw I had 3 messages...one of which was a friend of mine, Daniel telling me that he is truly sorry for my loss and he had just heard the news...he went on to tell me about how the Lions have set a record of the most losses, ever...






So while I am not the proudest I have ever been, I still Love you my Lions!!!

Changes....

I don't know if it is the time of year, or maybe it is just a coincidence, but there have been a lot of changes going on in my life lately, most of them, have been in my head and are not really viewable to the outside world, but they are pretty big, and I have been kind of wrapped up in my head lately, and not getting very much sleep (hence the sleep survey I had on here)...One of the big things is work, The stupid "big boss" fired Daniel...I know crazy right, I knew I would miss him, but I had no idea how much I would miss him (and its not just that we have no one who knows how to fix all the computery type stuff...I miss sharing an office and all the little day to day type stuff) and Dumb and Dumber get away with murder, I have no idea what they say or do to the boss, but they get away with anything and everything, but I have gotten to the point where the stress is going to eat me alive if I don't just let it go, so that is exactly what I am trying to do, I try not to think or talk about work at all once I have walked out of the office door...When I am at work I try to avoid all the drama, and stay out of every ones way, now this doesn't mean that I condone what dumb and dumber have done and it doesn't mean that I am not going to do everything I can possibly think of to make sure they are not gone as soon as possible, They have hurt some of the coolest people I know and have come to love, they have caused me to be grumpy with my family and take work stuff out on my kids and that is not acceptable as well as she has to be the most stupid person I have ever met, she has worked there for almost 6 months and still hangs on on people when she is trying to put them on hold...not to mention all the other numerous things going on...so I have decided to do as Daddy would say "let go and let god." or as Jenn would say "karma is a bigger bitch than I could ever be"... We had our work "Christmas party" yesterday and it was horrible...no body spoke unless the "big boss" asked them a question and then it was as short of an answer as possible...so that's it I am done putting effort into it...this will be my last blog about work, unless someone gets fired...

Now maybe I can put my mind on other things and get done more of the stuff I want to do, and I am going to be able to be nicer to my Family and Friends....

I am so sorry to those of you who have had to listen to me bitch and moan... this was the last time...

Intresting...

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/28191199/?GT1=43001


what I wanna know, is where/ how he got enough fox pee to fill a squirt gun....sorry, just the way my mind works...

This would so happen to me...

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/28181033/?GT1=43001


My favorite part...

Sgt. Ray Patrick said the situation was "more of an intimate relationship than an unlawful imprisonment."