Vegas BABY!!!!

We went to Vegas for this break from School, it was nice to get away and nicer to get back...I had a blast we did all kinds of stuff from the M and M store and coke factory to the wax museum to the hoover dam ( that was not so much fun, but was good for Bobbie) Robert took me to a magic show while Jess watched the kids, that was awesome he surprised me with backstage passes and we got to meet Steve Wyrick ( awesome guy, really nice and not to hard on the eyes either) he did a trick just for the 2 of us and we got to take pictures with the plane that he makes appear on stage...did lots of other stuff to many things to remember right now, I am sure I will blog more later when I can think better...lol...

My own Biggest fan

I was told that some of the people in my life think that and I quote " I am the president of my own fan club"...It got me thinking of a couple of things...


1. everybody should be the president of their own fan club...if you don't know all your great quality's then who does, you are around yourself more than anyone else, no one knows your good (or your bad ) like you do...



2. I am funny, I know I am funny, I laugh a lot, people around me laugh a lot, am I supposed to act like I don't know I am funny? Why would anyone try to hide one of their attributes? I am a klutz, I am over weight, I can be selfish, and there are other bad quality's but the good out weigh the bad...by a lot...





so I have decided to run with this...I am starting my own fan club, you may join if you wish, or not if you don't but I am an awesome person so YAY ME!!!

Terrific
Awesome
Magnificent
Magical
Yummy



so I guess I need:



a chant/song--to the tune of "Hey Ricky"---Hey Tammy your so fine, your so fine you blow my mind Hey Tammy!!!

a logo

posters

some members/fans----My mom, Kathy and Jess so far...

a name for my fans, like the claymates or heartmongers or blockheads

a website----ohhhh we can use my myspace....

t-shirts with my face on them---could be scary...lets put something else on them

membership cards

contests to win time with me

some signed stuff of mine to give away



so if you want to join just let me, if you want to apply to be on the board just let me know...

For now I think I am going to head to bed, you should be able to tell from this post just how very tired I am

Good night and God bless...no applause please....Tammy has left the building....

This is one of the many reasons she is my best friend!!!!!

I was having a hard time with Daddy's birthday yesterday ( see post below) and Jess wrote this I turned on my phone this morning after having it off for most of the day yesterday and I had a message from her...(just one message and if you are near either one of us for any amount of time you will know that is nothing, we normally text each other all day long...) it said she had blogged for me...the fact that she could get in my head enough to write that and the fact that she she knew I was not in the mood to talk....2 of the many many reasons Jess is my best friend and why I love her so much.... I hope you all have a friend like her, that you can turn to when you need to, and who also knows when you need some alone time, I am very blessed to have her in my life!!!!

Thank you Jess for being there when I needed you most and for knowing just what I needed when I needed it, you really are the best friend anyone could ever have! I love you.

Happy Birthday Daddy!!!! I miss you like crazy!!!

I am going crazy today. I am hiding in my office, I am not answering my phone or talking to anyone unless I have to, this birthday is hitting me the hardest. I have so much going on in my life right now that I would love to talk to you about and get your advice on. Throughout my life if I had a big decision to make I knew I could always go to you and you would give me sound advise. I knew that no matter what trouble I had gotten myself into you would help me figure out how to get myself out of it, and how not to get there again. I know it sounds bad, but I almost feel like you abandoned me when I was going to need you most...Bobbie is getting older and Krista never even got to meet you, its not fair, I am not even 30 years old I should still have my daddy, and I don't...yes I know you are in my heart and always will be and most of the time I can take comfort in that, but for right now I am angry that you are not here in person, I miss my daddy and I need my daddy. I should not be angry with you on your birthday, I should be all hearts and flowers, but right now I just can't...I am being selfish and I miss you. Any ways I hope that you are having a very happy birthday up in heaven, I know all your pain is gone and you are walking on streets of gold....I am happy for you, I promise, I am just having a hard time today...

Why on earth would any one pay to get tortured?

Well that is exactly what I did today ( well Jess paid while I was getting done, but I was planning on paying)...I got my eyebrows threaded it was.....trying to find the right word......intresting....It hurt like hell and I don't think you could ever pay me to do it again...I do like the shape of my eyebrows, but it is basically a pair of strings that are twisted together enough to pull out a line of hair and unlike waxing it is just a little line at a time....I would say try it at least once, but have a drink or 2 first... and if for some reason Linda is reading this, I was going to bake the "cookies" you wanted, but since you put this on the list, no cookies for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Some very Good Ideas...

1. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

2. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

3. When you say, 'I love you,' mean it.

4. When you say, 'I'm sorry,' look the person in the eye.

5. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

6. Believe in love at first sight.

7. Never laugh at any one's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

8. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

9. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling. (When fighting with your spouse do so naked, the fight won't last long.)

10. Don't judge people by their relatives.

11. Talk slowly but think quickly.

12. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, 'Why do you want to know?

13. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

14. Say 'bless you' when you hear someone sneeze.

15. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

16. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others;and Responsibility for all your actions.

17. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

18. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

19. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

20. Spend some time alone.

Resolutions....better late than never...

So normally I don't make New Years Resolutions, I think it is setting your self up to fail, plus I am lazy, too lazy to make a list and way to lazy to do the stuff on the list, but this year several of my friends had made resolutions and a couple have made some pretty long lists and it made me think, and how many things in my life I would like to change, now don't get me wrong I am happy with my life...VERY HAPPY, but I just want to better myself in a few ways and I thought if I posted them here it might help me to keep them on my mind and help me to make the changes in my life that I need/want to make...

1. I want to go back to school--even if just for one class at a time, I miss learning new things and challenging my brain.

2. I want to try new things--I have always been the type of person who is pretty much up for anything, as long as it sounds fun, or sounds good...well I want to try new things even if they don"t necessarily sound good, who knows where it could lead I may find something I love...so I want to take a cue from my best friend and try everything at least twice...

3. I want to speak my mind--some of you (well most of you) are under the assumption that I already do that, well I do most of the time, but there are times when I don't for various reasons (I don't want to hurt someones feelings, I am to scared, I figure it's not that big of a deal to just "let it go") and lately it has been eating me up not to say some of the things I have been thinking and feeling so I want to be able to tell people what I am thinking and how I am feeling, so I don't keep holding it in until it eats away at me

4. I want to lose weight--don't get me wrong I am happy with how I look (except the saggy boobs), and Robert loves the way I look (even the saggy boobs), this is not a looks thing, I want to be more healthy, I want to have more energy, I want to be able to buy clothes at any store, and be able to shop here in town instead of having to drive at least 30 min. just to get clothes, I want to be able to pick up a pair of jeans for less than $50.00...clothes for my size cost a fortune...

5. I want to try and spend more quality time my girls--lately its homework, dinner, a little bit (very little) of play time, bath, bed for Bobbie and nap, dinner, a little bit (very little) of play time, bath, bed for Krista....I miss them I love to play with them to see them smile, to hear about what happened during Bobbies day...to watch them interact with each other...I just miss them and I am afraid time and the stages that they are in are just going to pass me by...

6.I want to listen better to others-- I want to take what they have to say into consideration, When I get something in my head a lot of times I tent to get so focused on what ever that may be that I "steam roll" over everything and everyone else...

So anyway, those are the things I hope to change in my life, you are welcome to add more if you can think of any, and I may or may not agree, but I will listen... ( I hope...lol)

I may have to give in...

I hate going to the doctor! I just thought I would state that to start with, I actually don't mind if there is nothing wrong with me, like for check ups and such...but when I have a reason to go I don't want to, it is a pain it normally happens when I have no time what so ever, and is just plain a hassle, most times I would rather suffer through what ever is bothering me, plus right now I am with out insurance so it can get really expensive....I am however very lucky to have a Doctor who not only realizes that I hate going to see him ( he doesn't even take offence) but he also realizes that I am with out insurance, so a lot of times if it is something simple a phone call will do and we take it from there....on January 5th I fell and dislocated my knee, for most people this would cause them to seek immediate medical attention, but to me it happens every 6 months or so (I have a very bad knee) so I laid there for a minute, popped it back into place and went on with what I was doing, with a slight limp, that I knew would go away in a couple of days, no harm~no foul, well as I was walking into the house later that day it popped out again (this has never happened) and so I sat there and looked at it and realized that the cap went toward the outside, away from my other leg... (again that had never happened before, normally goes in, toward the other leg) so again I popped it back into place and got up, this time it was much more tender and I was having a very hard time walking...so anyways the next day I decided if I was going to move I was going to need to use Daddy's old cane...so for 2 days I walked with a cane (by that time we were on the 7th)...after that limping was manageable and since I was tripping people with my cane ( most of which were on accident) I decided to limp it out, even though it was more tender than normal...all was going pretty well, well as well as could be until yesterday (the 11th) I went shopping and out to lunch and then more shopping (hobbling the whole way) and by the time I got home I was having spasms...kinda felt like my leg was falling asleep from the knee down, but not the normal part of falling asleep, the painful part...you know what part I mean where its like you can't move and it just HURTS, well this has gone on and off all night last night and all day today, so I am afraid I may have to give in and actually go to the flippin doctor....ehh maybe I will give it another couple of days....I am so afraid because I know what they are going to do,(<--- click and you will see why I don't want to go to the Doctor) and I just don't have the time to deal with it all, plus I have a vacation coming up and I WILL NOT be laid up during it.... so anyways Just wanted to vent....

Boobs... A Fact of Life and A Pain in the Rump!!!

Boobs, Breasts, Fun Bags, Chi-Chi's, Ta-Ta's,Bazoombas, Boulders, Hooters, Jugs, Bosoms, Tetons, The Girls, The Bears, Knockers, Melons, Pillows, Twin Peaks...

OK so every guy wants to play with them and every girl wants to have them...I too wanted large boobs (which is what we call them in my house) at one point in my life, that is until I got them...now normally I would not Blog about my Large Breasts, and I would not share my cup size with the world, Which is a H...yes that's right I have H size boobs, pity me if you want they are a pain in the rump and get in the freaking way all the time...but A funny thing happened to me today and It was so funny I could not help but share with you, my dear readers~

I have to order my bras ( you can't just run to your local Victoria's Secret and buy them in my size), so a week or so ago I went online and found my bra's on sale buy one get one (and that is an awesome deal since they are normally $50.00) so I got 4, paid for 2 got 2 free, and given that 2 were "free" I decided to try different styles than I normally wear...well Long story Longer...They came today and as I was trying on the different, new ones and I came to a little surprise~ one of them had PADDING....yes you read that right PADDING, now I want to know why in the world some one would want padding in a bra that is already so darn big one of the cups fits over Roberts head like a hat? They are called "Airbags" ~ now I know I am kind of a klutz, but do they really think my boobs need airbags?...they are my airbags, they cushion my falls...I just don't get why they would even make a padded bra that is already so large on its own, I can not get through a meal with out dropping food on my shirt, why would I want to put my shirt out and in the way any more than it already is...it makes no sense to me...I am now at a cross roads....do I keep it and wear it...the "airbags" are removable, or do I return it, and if I return it, do I send a note asking them why they would pad a bra that size...I have truly never been so perplexed as to why a product was made before in my life, I have always reasoned that some one some where would find a use for it, even if it made no sense to me...but a padded Bra for someone with already extremely large boobs...that's just...DUMB!!!

So I took the "airbags" out and I tried the bra on with a couple of my shirts, and as long as I don't put the "airbags" in I like the way it looks, so I am going to keep the bra and not use the "airbags"....is there anyone out there in need of some "airbags"...I will gladly send them your way....

Thanks for letting me vent...and if you have any ideas why they would make such a thing please let me know, cause now it's bugging me....

Happy New Year!!!!

The new year is traditionally a time for cleaning out the bad from your life~be it people, things, habits....and is a time to decide to do things better, to do the right thing, to start over...I tend to look back on the year that has ended and as I look back on 2008 I wonder if I have done the things I should have or maybe done the things I shouldn't have....either way I try to live my life with no regrets (as a wise person once said, regrets will leave scars on your soul and doubt in your heart), the things I do and experience make me the person I am, but still I wonder if maybe I have done something that I shouldn't have, if I have hurt someone I care about or some one I love, I wonder if I have touched some ones life in an awesome way that will change their life for the better, have I left a mark? If I were to die today would the world be a better place because I was in it (besides my girls, cause I know the world is a better place because of them...), have I pushed someone (or more than one someone) into something they didn't want to do, Have I made them feel like if they did not want to do things my way I would not like/love them anymore...Have I mothered my friends when they didn't want to be, and all they really needed was a friend not a mother~ for me that last part would be hard to change...I am a mom, I love my girls with all my heart and if I find a friend or loved one that I care about very deeply and that I love I find it hard not to try and protect them, to help them when they fall, to let them know if I think they are doing something that will hurt them, I am a mom it is who I am, I am not sure if I can or even want to change~ I think the things I listed above make a good friend as well as a good mom...
Sorry for rambling, I was typing this as I was thinking back and I am sure it came out sounding all weird and garbled...

Happy New Year!!! I hope for all of you out there that this is the best year you have had yet, and that they only get better each and every year!!!!!

Nervous...

Nervous--viewing the future with anxiety or alarm...

I know I am normally seen as a pretty confident person, some one who knows what she wants and goes for it ( I didn't get married at 18 because I was indecisive), but some times that is not always the case, sometimes I know what I want, but I am not sure how to go for it...sometimes I am just as nervous as everyone else, some times more so...
I have always wanted to come off as a confident person, and sometimes I think that may be to my detriment, yes I know what I want, but do I always know how to get it....nope...are there times when I know how to get it but am to nervous to do what ever it takes...yep...so sometimes I just "lay in wait" for things to come to me....not always the best idea...but I am working on it...so if you are waiting for me to do something and I have not yet done it, it doesn't mean I don't want to it just means I am human and my nerves sometimes get in the way, and sooner or later (hopefully sooner) I will kick my nerves out of the way and do what I want to do but what my nerves keep getting in the way of...

( How's that for not talking about work ;-).... I kept my promise no work talk)

Bucket List...Thanks Jess

(X)Gone on a blind date- Been there done that....it sucked

(X) Skipped school- Only every other day of my senior year...

( ) Been to Canada- nope, but when my best friend moves there I am sure to follow....

(X) Been to Mexico- I actually have been, not sure I would go right now, but definitely... want to go back someday

(X) Been to Florida- nope but want to go to Disney world someday

(X) Been on a plane- yeppers

(X) Been lost- nope in my family we call it going on an adventure, because when Bobbie was little (before I had GPS) I would get lost alot and that would scare Bobbie so we called it going on an Adventure....

( X) Been on the opposite side of the country- NYC Oct. 2004

( ) Gone to Washington , DC- nope...and not really interested...

(X) Swam in the ocean-Dude...Live in So. Cal.

() Cried yourself to sleep- don't think so...normally when I cry I can't sleep so I stay awake all night

(X) Played cops and robbers- I had no Idea the bucket list was x-rated

() Recently colored with crayons-ummmm nope....so not my thing

(X ) Sang Karaoke- it was not pretty, but I had 9 or 10 drinks in me.....

( ) Paid for a meal with coins only?- nope but I have paid for Gas with only coins

(X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?- hasn't everyone?

(X ) Made prank phone calls- hehehe

(X) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose- Just today...Stupid Robert...

(X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue- was not all it is cracked up to be...

(X ) Danced and or kissed in the rain- I have a wonderful Husband.....

() Written a letter to Santa Claus- Not for myself...but have helped my kids do it...

(X ) Been kissed under the mistletoe- sort of...

() Watched the sunrise with someone-I have watched it set... but never been awake for the rise...

(X) Blown bubbles- yeppers...its fun to torment the kids when they are little

( X) Gone ice-skating- Not pretty

(X ) Been skinny dipping outdoors- no comment

(X) Gone to the movies- yep...

(X)Own my own house-sittin in it now (well the bank owns most of it)

(X)Try to let myself experience life-I try my best to experience as much as I can ( although a lot of times it gets me in trouble)

()Visit the Grand Canyon-its a hole in the freaking ground...seen one of those before thank you...

(X)Have my breath taken away- was a very good very fun thing...

(X)Travel-have done some would love to do more

(X)Meet awesome friends-I already have the best ones ever, but new ones wouldn't be bad...make new friends but keep the old, one is silver, the other gold...

(X)Fall in love- Fell head first...glad he caught me

(X)Have very few regrets- not sure if I have any...everything I have done has made me the freaking awesome person I am today...

(X)Find happiness-I find it every day in my loved ones eyes....


Now I am going to add some of my own bucket list items:

I want to:


Watch my girls grow up and enjoy what life has to offer...

have my boobs lifted, I want them pointing to the sky as I lay in my coffin...

have a "girls weekend" away from the hubby and the kids...just to chat and gossip and shop...

have my hubby surprise me with a romantic weekend away..that he planned...

give the best Christmas gift ever to those I love, one they will never forget and always look back on and love...

to write a book...

to really be able to be myself 100%, and not care what anyone thinks...

Snow Day!!! Fun Day!!!

So we went to the snow on sunday and we took The Bestest Friend Ever...

and we took the puppy....

Can you tell he had fun running and playing in the snow?

The kids had fun too, even if it doesn't look like it from this picture...

We went we played...we had a blast sooo much fun then Jess fell in a hole...Robert helped her out...after he took a couple of pictures...

well thats not one of them...but we took some I swear...

Then we went shopping up there and got some cute stuff...came down...had lunch...came home...all in all it was a great day...and I hope to do it again soon...

I will always love you, no matter what you do...

That is what daddy told me when ever I did some thing really wrong...."I will always love you, no matter what you do, I just might not be as proud of you as I usually am..." Well I think that fits for how I am feeling right now... I went to play in the snow ( another blog and pictures on that another time I promise) yesterday and while up there the phone reception is really bad and if my phone can not get a signal it turns itself off (a fact I did not know until last night at about 10 pm)...When I went to see why I wasn't getting any calls (thinking I had turned to volume down) I saw it was off, upon turning it on I saw I had 3 messages...one of which was a friend of mine, Daniel telling me that he is truly sorry for my loss and he had just heard the news...he went on to tell me about how the Lions have set a record of the most losses, ever...






So while I am not the proudest I have ever been, I still Love you my Lions!!!

Changes....

I don't know if it is the time of year, or maybe it is just a coincidence, but there have been a lot of changes going on in my life lately, most of them, have been in my head and are not really viewable to the outside world, but they are pretty big, and I have been kind of wrapped up in my head lately, and not getting very much sleep (hence the sleep survey I had on here)...One of the big things is work, The stupid "big boss" fired Daniel...I know crazy right, I knew I would miss him, but I had no idea how much I would miss him (and its not just that we have no one who knows how to fix all the computery type stuff...I miss sharing an office and all the little day to day type stuff) and Dumb and Dumber get away with murder, I have no idea what they say or do to the boss, but they get away with anything and everything, but I have gotten to the point where the stress is going to eat me alive if I don't just let it go, so that is exactly what I am trying to do, I try not to think or talk about work at all once I have walked out of the office door...When I am at work I try to avoid all the drama, and stay out of every ones way, now this doesn't mean that I condone what dumb and dumber have done and it doesn't mean that I am not going to do everything I can possibly think of to make sure they are not gone as soon as possible, They have hurt some of the coolest people I know and have come to love, they have caused me to be grumpy with my family and take work stuff out on my kids and that is not acceptable as well as she has to be the most stupid person I have ever met, she has worked there for almost 6 months and still hangs on on people when she is trying to put them on hold...not to mention all the other numerous things going on...so I have decided to do as Daddy would say "let go and let god." or as Jenn would say "karma is a bigger bitch than I could ever be"... We had our work "Christmas party" yesterday and it was horrible...no body spoke unless the "big boss" asked them a question and then it was as short of an answer as possible...so that's it I am done putting effort into it...this will be my last blog about work, unless someone gets fired...

Now maybe I can put my mind on other things and get done more of the stuff I want to do, and I am going to be able to be nicer to my Family and Friends....

I am so sorry to those of you who have had to listen to me bitch and moan... this was the last time...